DD, if it feels so much like you're having to balance you should probably let someone else have a go. A job like that demands that your work position is rock solid.
I wish Joe! My OH will do it when pushed, but often he is too busy, my own fault I am so impatient and want everything perfect! Am getting a bit better, realising that gardening is a slow and steady process.
Thank you for your concern, very gentlemanly.